Some of what I learned about women as a boy on the streets of Long Island City | Mickey Z.

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Mickey Z. -- World News Trust

March 11, 2018

I’ve come to recognize -- particularly in the time of #metoo -- how important it is for men to identify their early influences.

In order to change, it’s essential to know what molded our masculine, male supremacist mindset. For example, recent articles of mine have examined the normalization of male pattern violence and the casual acceptance of older male predators in our midst. This time around, I’m recalling specific factors that shaped my subconscious perception of girls and women in the era before pornography took control.

NOTE: In case it’s not painfully obvious, my recollections of how I perceived male-female dynamics -- and prostituted women and girls, in particular -- as a teenager do not in any way reflect my feelings and behavior today. 

“I got action!”

Since it’s become both hip and profitable, the umbrella name of “Astoria” is now used to cover a lot of real estate. When I was younger, the specific area where I grew up was always called Long Island City. It was a working class, urban, industrial setting of asphalt, tenements, factories, and a few old cobblestone streets. High crime, low greenery, ethnically diverse but often divided (except when we played sports).

In such a setting, my friends and I were left to our devices in terms of having fun. This often meant roaming the streets in small gangs -- looking for “adventure.” When we were about 12 or 13, we discovered the (now defunct) Turf Club Motor Inn. 

The Turf Club was a standard “short-stay” joint. Some of its first floor windows faced the street -- low enough for a juvenile delinquent on his tip toes. So, whenever we’d pass, we’d each peek into a few different windows until we found one matching these criteria: something was going on and the curtains were open just enough to see a little of what that something was.

On such occasions, we’d whisper: “I got action! I got action!” At that, all the punks would gather to look. Would there be anything -- even shadows -- to give us a glimpse at what adults do? Remember…this is long before Internet porn. It’s even before VHS porn, for that matter. So, while our young male minds had had a few glimpses at a stolen issue or two of Playboy, we were “innocent” compared to boys of the same age today.

What we did have, however, was perhaps more face-to-face patriarchal conditioning. In the pre-Internet and pre-smartphone days of yore, humans interacted differently. Thus, our male elders played a direct role in our programming. For example, when our group talked about the Turf Club, the older guys would explain the dynamics we partially witnessed. 

Men who were cheating on their wives and girlfriends used cash-only rooms in a “shady” part of town. No paper trail and virtually no chance of being seen in a world without 24/7 surveillance. As boys, we simply accepted this premise: Men cheat (but not our Dads, of course), there is an endless supply of sex-craving women, and wives and girlfriends go along with it to keep the peace and maintain their financial security. The Turf Club was just there to keep things in the shadows, to allow for the illusion of trust and honesty. 

I don’t recall any of us ever passing moral judgement on this. We had already been conditioned to recognize it as the natural order of things -- a natural order we were expected to grow up into: A wife who loves us, a son who plays sports, a daughter who doesn’t date boys until she’s 18… a secret hideaway like the Turf Club where we can express another aspect of our manhood.

“Sordid history of prostitution and murder”

There’s more. There’s always more. Not surprisingly, the Turf Club became a regular venue for pimps, johns, and prostituted women. Soon enough, even the newspapers were writing about its “sordid history of prostitution and murder” and it eventually closed down. 

I say “not surprisingly” because it was common for decades to see prostituted women and girls lining the streets of Long Island City each evening at sundown. Less than a block from the five-floor walk-up I called home, there’d be many such women and girls. As we become old enough to be outside more than inside, my parents cautioned me and my sister to steer clear of them. “They all carry razor blades,” my mother warned.

By the time I was 12, such a warning only served to spark my curiosity. My friends and I would sometimes jump out and surprise potential johns when they’d slow down and stop to talk with a woman. “We got your license plate number,” we taunt. “We’re gonna tell your wife!” (Of course, the Turf Club had already taught us how common and “normal” infidelity is.)

Such behavior raised the ire of the prostituted women but also provoked the sheer rage of nearby pimps. We learned quickly to have an escape plan under such circumstances.

As I hit 13, I was out later and later on the streets. Plenty of times, when I walked home alone, I’d pass a parked car in which a john and a woman he’d bought were, um... consummating a transaction. In those cases, yeah, I might take a peek. But being alone on a dark, desolated side street and knowing a pimp was hiding within a half-block distance usually kept me moving.

My mother had stopped bothering with her cautions and warnings by the time I was 14 and an unexpected incident made it clear I had garnered more “wisdom” than she in the ensuing years. I came home one night to find her looking out one of our fourth-floor windows. She called me over to join her.

Across the street from our building was a large parking lot. It was full all day with factory workers. At night, not so much. Mom pointed to a car parked in the shadows with a man standing nearby. 

“He must be a look-out,” she posited. “I think a big drug deal is happening.” Needless to say, this captured my attention so I continued watching as another guy emerged from the car and switched places with the “look-out.”

“Maybe the second man’s buying drugs now?” Mom wondered aloud. I looked at her in surprise. 

“Ma,” I began, “there’s probably a prostitute in the backseat and those guys are taking turns.”

My mother’s face displayed a blend of shock and disbelief just as the car door opened again. This time, a young woman got out. She was wearing hot pants and a tube top as she walked away as best she could in huge platform heels. 

Mom looked at me for a few seconds before silently walking into the kitchen. 

Porn-sick before puberty

Of course, it never crossed my mind (or my friends’ minds) how those girls and women ended up being bought and sold on street corners, parking lots, and backseats. That wasn’t part of my hive mind conditioning. Based on the music I enjoyed and the films I watched over and over, I was taught to not wonder if females were ever exploited, oppressed, used and abused. 

But again, this was in a time before pornography became the default setting -- before literal children learned about “sex” from free video clips on their smartphones. My stories almost seem quaint yet it still took me decades to even begin recognizing how my silence equals consent and complicity.

Imagine how it is in the minds of today’s young men who became porn-sick before puberty… 

I’ll return to where I began: I’ve come to recognize -- particularly in the time of #metoo -- how important it is for men to identify their early influences. In order to change, it’s essential to know what molded our masculine, male supremacist mindset. 

It’s also essential that we rescue the minds of today’s male youth. As Gail Dines explains, “The porn industry has hijacked the sexuality of an entire culture and is laying waste to a whole generation of boys. And when you lay waste to a generation of boys, you lay waste to a generation of girls.”

Name the problem. #WhatMalesDo

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